Your truth is not too idealistic

..It might be far from reality but that doesn’t mean it is too idealistic.

I know what it’s like to live within a truth, an inner knowing, a vision, that is beyond the illusions of “reality”. I know what it takes to believe in yourself, when the people and world around you think and see otherwise. I know how it is to grow up in a world where you feel like you don’t really belong because your truth doesn’t match the narrow-minded viewpoints from your environment. But who are you? Especially when you were still a kid, or a teenager, that “doesn’t know much” or “doesn’t have much experience” and is expected to conform to the norm.

From early on I knew things were twisted. From early on I knew that the world is upside down. But I didn’t have a role model, I didn’t have the right guidance, I could not develop myself the way I should have because every time when I followed my rebellious spirit — in my very innocence because it was the most logical and intuitive for me — the people around me put me on “the right path” again. I wasn’t allowed to explore my own creative path. And from a young age, I felt that limitation deeply.

But I’m at a place now where I can say that I’m happy that all of that happened because it is has led to my awakening. That doesn’t mean that I’m not angry about my upbringing and everything “that went wrong”. The anger of the misunderstanding, the anger of feeling and being lost, the anger of robbing me from my intuition, my own creative path and development is very much present but I know better and better how to transmute that pain into purpose.

What I’ve learned is that the pain, the deep emotional heartfelt pain, the trauma, will never go away. And it first has to become even more painful, because when you allow to feel, you allow it to break your heart. But the more you feel through it, the more wisdom you’ll get out of it. The more purpose it will give you. And that purpose gives you the fuel, the grit, the perseverance to stand in your truth. To re-claim your intuition, to walk your creative path and to developing yourself by taking in what is meant for you to take in and channel through your uniqueness.

The journey of understanding who you are, of believing in yourself, of believing that your truth is worthy and won’t ever be too idealistic but that it is a clear vision, a laser focus view that sees through the illusions, ís a hell of a ride but:

you are the hero or heroine of your own story.

You can shape your life the way you want it and you can bring your vision, your reality to life. You can be who you are. Especially when no one allowed you to it is your purpose to be rooted in your inner sense of freedom to do so.

With love, Rachèl